So I closed my eyes
And I cut my hair
Wondering if anyone else was there
That you could see
With eyes so wide
It almost defied
It’s not the seeing that’s lost
But your presence was the cost
Of a self-entitled, self-appointed ignorance
I was the cost, and you made it valueless
The more you strained against the constraint
Of time between us
You sucked it down the hands of a clock
And told me that I needed to stop
Growing, flowing, disappearing in the sea
Can you see me now?
As my silhouette fades
Were you afraid to lose a love
That you ignored
Out of your sight?
This gravity between us
Is a heaviness that needs release
Don’t keep me
Ripping my skin, and cutting my hair and closing my eyes
So I wouldn’t have to see
To my love.
Let me go to the sea
Where I can dance freely
Beneath the waves and the storms that
From the sights of their eyes.
-A.A. @lughlana (Instagram: @ nyxilotbiscuit)